There You Have It

Today started off great! I had so much fun with my amazing friend Gina.. we did everything from swimming to getting a fish to playing Yoshi's World (or something), making martini's, watching the show Firefly, and just being dorks. Yes, an old friendship renewing itself..

Sadly i came home to an unexpected betrayal... I'm not going to specify but it really hurt... as time passed i really got to thinking... I dont need all this drama and hu ha...

im going to be leaving out of town for a week tomorrow and im going to really think about where life can and is going to take me...

anyway

here are my thoughts from earlier

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what happened? where did everyone go?

I live in a world of worse case scenarios. I cant help but cut myself off from hoping for the best because too many times the best doesnt happen.

BUT

every now and then, something extrodinary occurs. And Suddenly i believe best scenarios seem possible, and perhaps every now and then, something amazing will happen. And... against my better judgement... i start to have hope... again.

"You think the world stops when you stop... but it just keeps on going."

As a decent human being i'm obligated to give out the facts to those around me. But what people really want to know is.. 'Will the pain ever go away?' and 'Will I feel better?'... What they really wanna know is... is there hope?

::sighhh::

Inevitably there are times when you find yourself in the worst-case scenario. When your body and mind and loved ones have betrayed you, all you had to offer failed, and when the worst case scenario comes true.... clinging to hope.... is all we've got left.

but the tears keep coming

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