{.. it ended sadly ..}

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Violation of expectations. Maybe it was the crushing belief of faith, of love, life, and art

I believe your heart grows bigger after it had the shit kicked out of it. i believe the universe allows it to expand.

i want to be in love. i want to wake up next to someone and see them smile. i want to do sunday breakfast and stay in bed together all day... The yearning... The suffering... A Man to pursue me through blizzards and continents. a love so real that even after your dead it still hurts............................... but its not my time for that right now.. i dont even want a relationship with anyone (sorry boys)

He taught me about saddness, human frailty, and how unbearably fleeting happiness can be, I'm going to owe him for the rest of my life.

He just stopped loving me.. I dont know what i did or didnt do... he just stopped.....

Sometimes... i feel i dont deserve love. and maybe i dont. maybe he's right.

Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face
If only I knew what I know today

I would hold you in my arms, I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done, Forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do, To hear your voice again
Sometimes I want to call you but I know you won't be there

I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you
Someday I feel broke inside but I won't admit
Sometimes I just want to hide 'cause it's you I miss
You know it's so hard to say goodbye when it comes to this

Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
There's nothing I want to do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes and see you looking back
If I had just one more day, I would tell you how much that
I've missed you since you've been away

Oh, it's dangerous
It's so I'm afraid to try to turn back time

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