{.. My Lasting Regret ..}

There is no sound of laughter or happiness here
He has thrown in the towel today
Somber, melancholy moods decay the soul
It is futile to hope and dream and pray

No one is happy all of the time, but some people feel as if they can never find happiness. Some people feel as if their entire life is devoted to nothing but pain and hurt and loneliness. Every day is a struggle, and every breath a fight for survival.

Depression too often walks hand in hand with a deep sense of helplessness. And i will always be left with the feeling that i could've saved him.

I held the knife so close to my heart.
Like a foolish child I sat and I cried,
Didn't realize what I had done,
Tears falling slowly to the ground.
I stare at the screen,
His last message to me, a cry for help
I wasn't there.But i Could've been!
WHY!!! why did you do it
Now i will never see your face
our inside jokes now lost
He met lady Misery,
She called to him in his dreams
she was his twisted soul
He met an angel named Evil
It traveled amounst the shadows
It's heart was dying for some form of life
You had so much to live for
i could've told you that..
i could've, should've, didn't.
My lasting regret
:

Somewhere in my dreams tonight
I'll see you standing there
You look at me with a smile and whisper
"Life isn't always fair"

"Oh Jesse but it has it's beautiful moments" i scream
but he's gone,
Never to come back.

Lost in the glory of all time,
the wisdom was there within that smile,
You see you could have told us,
there within lies the mystery.

Flowers for a grave,
Both dainty and distressing,
As tears escape twin rivers of the soul.
Words left unspoken,
Considered unnecessary,
Sunshine and shadows, petals and tears.
Now the bridge is broken,
The chance was temporary,
To cross back and stroll through tender years.
Eulogies and regret,
mysterious
I failed to say just what I really meant.
A cemetery debt,
For love that went unpaid,

I LOVE YOU ALL! You're not alone!

It's just like him
To wander off in the evergreen park
Slowly searching for any sign
Of the ones he used to love..

He says he's got nothing left to live for
(He says he's got nothing left...)
And this time I think you'll know..

You're not alone
There is more to this, I know
You can make it out
You will live to tell

She's just like him
Spoiled rotten
Confused by the lies she's been fed
And she's searching for no one..
(But herself)
Her eyes turn to green and she seems to be happy
That she is here
And this time I think you'll know...

You're not alone