{.. My thoughts are choking on you my dear ..}

When I turn the lights out
When I close my eyes
Reality overcomes me
I'm living a lie

My heart is broken

random parts of my heart onto a blog.. no im not emo.. or maybe im having an emo moment.. it doesnt matter

Salty tears of frustration streamed down my checks... Nobody notices

.I get tired, and I get weak
I get lost, and I can't sleep

All the PaIn I thought I knew and experienced, All the thoughts are leading back to YOU I can't handle this confusion; come and take me away I feel like I am all alone... and I need to get around this
My words are cold, I don't want them to hurt you

WHY? I'm not afraid of anything.. I just need to know that i can breathe

Being heartbroken is a pain that no one can understand until they have experienced it for themselves. Love is a force that requires an intense devotion of energy and soul, and the loss of love can be completely devastating... i am afraid of loneliness ... but can i stand alone without leaning on you? i wake up at night with bitter tears in my eyes.. i feel as if my heart is breaking and i begin to cry not to worry, ill be fine i'll make it through the day.. i know you still love me... you told me so.. and i will always have hope

When I'm alone I
Feel so much better
And when Im around you
I don't feel

I sat on the porch in absolute silence surrounded only by the darkness

I know I need to step up and be strong... but I just want to sit and stare at you I don't want to talk about it And I don't want a conversation I just want to cry in front of you I don't want to talk about it
!

Holding hands we'll fall
(and that's all that matters.. cause you'll be there)

i have hope.. i know you want to be with me.. you told me so.. i am slowly understanding and i know it was mutual.. but i love you so much that i cant help but hurt.. i pray you will still kiss my tears away and feel what you feel always.

If I had my way
I'd never get over you
Today's the day
I pray that we make it through